Helen Keller was a blind girl who saw more than most people with vision can see. She said, “The most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even be touched, they must be felt with the heart.” Recently, I have self diagnosed myself as a shopaholic. Nothing wrong with a little retail therapy you say? Well – I have to disagree.
When I see something I like: I hold my breath til I get to it, then I closely inspect it, every single aspect besides the price tag because I don’t want that to taint my pure moment of rapture. Most of the time, I notice something I don’t like and I am able to ‘snap’ out of it and carry on. But then sometimes, it bubbles over and I think… – I have to have that oh, it’s my size, oh what a great price, I must have it.
Do you remember when you use to shop with your mom and said, Mommy I want that. And she would say well are you going to wear it? Do you really like it? NOW – These questions are not even relevant because of COURSE i like it and ya for SURE i would wear it… but that’s not even the issue anymore. I just have too much stuff. No one needs 50 pairs of shoes, 37 scarves, 24 pairs of jeans, 18 jackets, I COULD GO ON.
All because I love it, it looks great on me and I definately NEED it and would give it a fun life, amazing photo ops and take it places its little heart cannot even imagine, no one can rock it like me -STILL, I must say no, I cannot have it.
I am doing a retail-fast for 6 months. I am not shopping for any clothes, shoes, accessories, scarves, sunglasses, jewelry .. ZIP til June 2009.
I can do it because I understand that:
1. All because it’s beautiful, it does not mean I have to own it
2. Even if I owned all the beautiful things in the world, it does not make me a better person
3. When I have too much, I do not fully allow the things I already have to exude its full potential and versatility
4. One of the four noble truths of Buddhism says: There is a cause of suffering, which is attachment or misplaced desire rooted in ignorance.
Let’s meditate on that for a minute. Misplaced desire + attachment (ps: it’s just stuff!)
I desire to create -> that is the root word of CREATIVE. So I have this inherit need to create, be it things, situations, events, concepts, writing, art, an artful life, music, memories, food… anything.
consumerism is a dangerous and slippery slope, rooted in the ignorance (of oneself, I think) aka misplaced desire. My desire is to create so – no more shopping til June 2009 so I can fully explore all the other ways I can create!
Do you have misplaced desires?